Monday, February 17, 2014

Rational Emotions

Recently, somebody suggested to me that logic is overrated and we, as people, tend to rationalise what we desire and twist logic around our emotions. As I consider myself a logical, rational person, this got me rather disturbed. Was my rebellion against arranged marriage and all the feminism simply my fear of commitment?

Eventually I arrived at the conclusion that while I do rationalise my emotional decisions, a lot of my emotions are based on sound logic. If I think that men treat their wives badly because they take them for granted, because they would never leave them, because they have no choice, because they are not financially independent, because they are not allowed to study or work, that makes me want to get a good job and care about my career and be ambitious. Now I am quite ambitious and a little emotional about my career, but isn't the emotion based on logic?

But of course, we do rationalise other, non- logical emotions. Falling in love has gone out of fashion. It's logical to date and it's logical to move on, even if you never get over a certain someone. Because it's illogical.

Now, I consider myself a logical person, but I also consider myself an emotional person. Some of my friends have nick-named me 'senti'(it sort of rhymes with my name). I think I might die young because my brain will short-circuit from all the contradiction from the logic and emotions it goes through.

I seek intellectual challenges and I love passionately. I am passionate in everything I do, from my dancing, my ideologies to my love for people, romantic or platonic. Life has so many colours and the world is so full of so many things and my desires are as endless as the universe, how does everyday, routine life match up to the imagination of the infinite possibilities of what life could be? I want to live in a certain city, I want a certain job, I want to love a certain kind of man (actually, I have a pretty specific specimen in mind) and for him to love me with the same passion. I want all of this, with enough time to travel the world and experience everything there is to experience, to ski and swim, even though I can do neither. And I forgot to mention, I want to be able to spend lots and lots of time with all of those people I love so much, even though they live on various continents.

Rationality indicates that real life would probably not live up to these possibilities, but hey, a girl can try.