Selfless......really?

Walking to and from school everyday my head wanders and I blurb it out here.

So today I was thinking about why I'm nice to people. Sometimes I wonder if I'm just a big suck up and want people to like me. Sure, I do want people to like me, but that's not the primary reason. I guess it's so I can feel I'm a good person. So I can continue to respect myself and feel good about myself.
Then I wondered about the concept of karma and whether I believe in it. I guess I do, since I found an explanation for it. Every time one is nice to somebody else, one nurtures a relationship and I realized that at the end of the day, happiness is about our relationships with other people and ourselves.

So maybe doing something good or being kind won't give one a ticket to heaven or help win a lottery, but it helps build meaningful relationships which eventually is how one can find happiness and peace. The road to happiness, as I understand as of now, is not through money, or anything it can buy (at least in the developed world where people don't have to struggle for basic necessities) or through what one might consider having a good time, but through the warmth of relationships. Love, friendship and camaraderie are not over-rated. They are getting lost in materialism and ambition.

I guess the reason I find myself thinking about these things is because I constantly find myself struggling between my ambition and affection for those who matter to me most. As for most things in life, there are no right answers, but I sure hope I don't live to regret the decisions I make.