From Spiderman: With great power comes great responsibility.
Well, sometimes even with a little power, comes a lot of responsibility. And being a control freak is very difficult. The uncertainty of the future is actually one of the most stressful things. When you're a control freak you do not let others make decisions for you. You need to control your life. Then you realise that even taking decisions for yourself isn't enough. That's when the spiral of self-doubt begins.
For instance, every time you're a little sick, your mom tells you to skip work and stay home. But your good sense tells you that you can't really afford to do that if you don't want to get fired. But once you get used to using your own brains and not listening to your mom, ever, you end up going out for dinner even when your sinuses are bursting, giving you a monster headache. It's so goddamn hard to strike that balance between taking advice and doing what you think is right. I now feel like spiderman.
But once in a while, you see a glimpse of what life would have been, without that power, the choice to make your own life decisions, and you can't help but thank your stars you had the balls to speak your mind.
What I'm really saying is that facebook scares the living daylights out of me every time I see pictures of girls I used to know getting married to boys they barely know. I won't deny I judge them but I really do try not to. I don't know if they found happiness, it is possible they did. But I do know that I would never have been happy had I gone down that road. I don't know if I'll be happy on the road I've taken. Nobody ever really knows. But I'm happy today and so long as I have confidence in the decisions I take, I will have no regrets.
Life's awesome and I am out here to live it. I'll deal with the uncertainty, otherwise there would be no surprises.
Well, sometimes even with a little power, comes a lot of responsibility. And being a control freak is very difficult. The uncertainty of the future is actually one of the most stressful things. When you're a control freak you do not let others make decisions for you. You need to control your life. Then you realise that even taking decisions for yourself isn't enough. That's when the spiral of self-doubt begins.
For instance, every time you're a little sick, your mom tells you to skip work and stay home. But your good sense tells you that you can't really afford to do that if you don't want to get fired. But once you get used to using your own brains and not listening to your mom, ever, you end up going out for dinner even when your sinuses are bursting, giving you a monster headache. It's so goddamn hard to strike that balance between taking advice and doing what you think is right. I now feel like spiderman.
But once in a while, you see a glimpse of what life would have been, without that power, the choice to make your own life decisions, and you can't help but thank your stars you had the balls to speak your mind.
What I'm really saying is that facebook scares the living daylights out of me every time I see pictures of girls I used to know getting married to boys they barely know. I won't deny I judge them but I really do try not to. I don't know if they found happiness, it is possible they did. But I do know that I would never have been happy had I gone down that road. I don't know if I'll be happy on the road I've taken. Nobody ever really knows. But I'm happy today and so long as I have confidence in the decisions I take, I will have no regrets.
Life's awesome and I am out here to live it. I'll deal with the uncertainty, otherwise there would be no surprises.
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